I Do Declare, How Dare You?!

Another picture from last week. It goes with the post title.

I've had it! I am so ticked off at everything wanting to lose weight. There are so many pressures in this culture. Every where you turn, there's "diet tricks" and crap. I hate all this "obese awareness" more than anything. I think somebody knows if they're overweight, so don't try to make them feel worse than they are. That pressures you to turn to Ed. A lot of the obese awareness is directed to kids nowadays more than anything. I think know kids already have bad self-esteem. Ugh! When they say "obese," they're obviously not realizing that kids don't understand what obese is (because of the bad self-esteem), they think that whatever obese is, they're it (I would know). That's why there's so many Ed victims. Did all those weight-loss activists realize that there's a much higher risk dying losing weight than gaining? Yes, I realize there's more to anorexia than losing weight, but that is how it starts (for me, at least). I wish I could raise more awareness on Ana and other eating disorders. And not show the supper-skinny ones that are half the weight they're supposed to be (for me, that actually encouraged me; they were my thinspiration). I would like to show the ones that most may not even expect have a eating problem. There are so many of them in this world, and no one even knows it. I want to reach out to those people and give them a hug. They need it. If you are victim, please know that I would love to talk, if you need it. I really care! I am going to add a contacts page soon, so anybody with this problem (or just wanna say hi), can write to me personally.

Now for another vent...
Ana has been hitting me harder than ever (since I have been in recovery, that is). I am automatically thinking, if I skip this, I can eat this. I was trying to eat at least 1,200 calories each day (the bare minimum, as my doctor says), now I am back down to about half of that. Not to mention I am exercising a lot more, too. So I have the net calories of less than 200. Way better than before I started, but not even close to good for my recovery plan. I am mad that I am just allowing it! I really have been thinking of counseling. It scares me, because I never believed in therapy and all that, but I am willing to be brave about it and see how it is. Maybe it will help a little.

Done with the venting. Sorry about that! So did you ever do what I told you? You know, look in the mirror, show your abs, and tell yourself you look great. You better have! If not, then do it now. And guess what? I have another dare! Go up to your close friend or a family member (that isn't judgmental), show off your abs, and say, "Feel my tough abs. Super strong!" It's fun; I do it myself all the time. Matter of fact, I even drew a Chester cat (with a tongue sticking out, and I used my belly button as the nose) on my abs, and showed them off the whole night. I like to dare myself to do stuff that scares me, and I encourage you to do so as well. Doesn't matter what others think. Do it for yourself. And have fun!
By the way, we have a new page, Meal Plans. The meal plan I wrote in it is from the last post. And like I said, I am working on a Contacts page as well.

Have a good day, Beauts! :)